My beloved grandma, the sweetest woman i know, has gone to be with our Lord tonight. She passed away in her sleep.
While i’m glad she crossed over peacefully, i’m so very sad to not be able to see her one more time. i would have liked to see her one more time; to tell her, even if she does not understand me (my Hokkien, our chinese dialect, is simply terrible), how much i love her and how much she means to me.
She showed me it is possible to simply quietly love someone, even if they are unaware of how much you do love them, even if they are not appreciative of it.
My beloved Mama… i miss you…
This is the last photo i took of my Grandma – it was at her 99th/100th birthday last year. There was some discussion as to whether it was really her 100th or not… some confusion with how birthdays are counted traditionally…This one was taken the year before. This smiling face always greets me, when i yell from the doorway, “MAMA!”This was 10 years ago – when my beloved Grandma & my dear Godma met my boy for the first time.
i have lost my grandma and Heaven has gained an angel. It will take time to accept that and not tear up thinking about her.
This post is a day late… but still there is always time to reflect on the wonderful Gift of Love given to us more than 2000 years ago, when God’s own beloved Son gave up His Life so that we might have life, when He rose again after 3 days to give us hope to live life victorious through Him and His Sacrifice. Thank you God, Thank you Jesus!
My poor husband has been unwell since November last year. He had Legionnaires Disease, recovered slightly but continued to feel terrible. After multiple visits to the doctor, he was finally diagnosed with Hyperthyroid. We were relieved, it is a well-documented and treatable condition. Now he is suffering from pains in both arms and legs. After a trip to the ER, a late night call to our family doctor, and an appointment today, it was concluded that the pains are a side effect of the thyroid meds. But it is still not getting better – sigh! – yet…
We can’t seem to catch a break with these health issues. We are also dealing with other issues which i am not ready to share. But it has indeed been one thing after another, all while trying to keep daily life on track.
A dear friend sent me this video to encourage me (Thank you my dear!):
It is a beautiful song. i have had dark times in my life before and focusing on the Lord always made it better and again it has worked.
But still it is human nature to ask, “Why Lord? Why?”.
“…Actually, when I realized the simple fact that God can–and will–give us more than we can possibly bear, it got easier…”
“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn of me…for my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matt. 11: 28-30)
“…in that one verse he simply states the reason why we are given more than we can handle: It’s so we can come to him. It’s so we can trust him enough to hand over our heavy, crippling burdens and let him carry the load…”
What she says in there is so so true and really lifts my spirit. Because i don’t have to be strong all by myself. i can lean on God’s strength. i don’t have to be brave all by myself. Jesus is with me always. i don’t have to figure out what to do all by myself. The Holy Spirit is here to lead me.
i can, and i pray i will, come to my Lord and give Him all my cares and i will bless His Name… because…
“…he’s the only one who can make it bearable when life is simply anything but.”
Amen.
i thank God for dear brothers- and sisters-in-Christ who stand by me in prayers and in spirit.
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